Wife – Mother – Pinup – Veteran
Hello to everyone ❤️ I haven't shared this yet, as it is something deeply personal to me and I struggled with the symptoms for quite some time before I finally sought help in 2010. See, while I was active duty I was diagnosed with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder which is otherwise known as PTSD. I still… Continue reading A Pinup’s Struggles with PTSD
When a life ends, it hits you with the power to shatter your heart. All of the memories, happiness, and dreams of what will now never be pour throughout your entire being, leaving little room for much else. That's how I describe how I feel with my first loss. Yes, I have been blessed to… Continue reading A Pinup Says Goodbye
As many of the world watched with bated breath, I desperately waited for answers. You see, during the horrors of Sunday in Las Vegas...it was Monday morning in Germany and I was terrified for my family and friends who live there. With no response to my questions of whether or not they were okay I… Continue reading A Pinup is Heartbroken
Recently, I entered in my first online Pinup Competition with The Pinup Registry. Fear, anxiety, and trepidation raced through me as I hit the send button on my application. Followed instantly with the thought of "WHY DID I DO THIS?!" Why did I even open myself up to be potentially hurt? I have recently been… Continue reading A Pinup Says a Heartfelt Thank You!
There is a hashtag going around on Instagram about the loss of a preganancy. #dontsay #dontsayit highlight the remarks that people hear after a miscarriage, that are said with good intentions, but cut like knives. It is so important that we continue to normalize such an event. It is not shameful and it needs to… Continue reading A Pinup on Pregnancy Loss
Holy Jingle Jangles! This week has been astoundingly wonderful and astoundingly hard all at once. I have traversed across the Atlantic and back in one weekend, held the son I hadn't seen in a year in a half, and welcomed this new addition to our family. My little boy has changed in so many ways,… Continue reading A Pinup is Trying
Ecstatic, Scared, Anxious, Overwhelmed Emotions completely flood through my system, each one a surge of adrenaline and a shock to my system. Something that I have been hoping, praying...begging for is finally happening. My son is coming home. After seven years of torment and pain, I will finally get a chance to raise my son.… Continue reading A Pinup’s Tangled Emotions
Earlier in the week, I noticed that my prescription of Sertraline was down to its last week. Which made me begin to think honestly about how I was truly feeling. Where they helping? Should I begin the weaning process? How did I really think I was in terms of my recovery? In all honesty? I… Continue reading A Pinup’s Trip to the Doctor
Kintsugi or kintsukuroi is a beautiful Japanese practice of taking and repairing broken ceramics with a special lacquer mixed with gold, silver, or platinum. This act shows us that even broken, something can turn out even more beautiful in the end. The same goes for people. Even the most broken of people can find the strength… Continue reading A Pinup’s Musings on Being Broken
Bella Bon Voyage 