Wife – Mother – Pinup – Veteran
Ecstatic, Scared, Anxious, Overwhelmed Emotions completely flood through my system, each one a surge of adrenaline and a shock to my system. Something that I have been hoping, praying...begging for is finally happening. My son is coming home. After seven years of torment and pain, I will finally get a chance to raise my son.… Continue reading A Pinup’s Tangled Emotions
Earlier in the week, I noticed that my prescription of Sertraline was down to its last week. Which made me begin to think honestly about how I was truly feeling. Where they helping? Should I begin the weaning process? How did I really think I was in terms of my recovery? In all honesty? I… Continue reading A Pinup’s Trip to the Doctor
Kintsugi or kintsukuroi is a beautiful Japanese practice of taking and repairing broken ceramics with a special lacquer mixed with gold, silver, or platinum. This act shows us that even broken, something can turn out even more beautiful in the end. The same goes for people. Even the most broken of people can find the strength… Continue reading A Pinup’s Musings on Being Broken
As you may know, not only am I a veteran but I am also married to a service member. This means goodbyes have become an all too frequent part of my life. What makes this "See Ya Later" even more bittersweet is the simple fact that I feel like we had just realized how wonderful… Continue reading A Pinup’s Thoughts on Saying Goodbye
Rage as defined by Merriam-Webster is violent and uncontrolled anger.
"Your baby doesn't have much of a chance, maybe less than 25%." Oh those words, they would frame most of my pregnancy with fear. Should we be excited? Or should we just prepare ourselves for the worst? How are you supposed to feel?
As a woman who battled with herself for most of her twenties, I feel like I finally know who I am. There are labels that I could use to define myself, but mostly I fall somewhere between the realm of whimsical and crazy.
Bella Bon Voyage 